As time goes by, other people will board the train.
This train ride will be full of joy, sorrow, fantasy, expectations, hellos, goodbyes, and farewells.
I wish you a joyful journey for the coming year on the train of life.
I couldn't help after watching him work until exhaustion that I had some internal work to do. He doesn't deserve a wife who can't let go and who obsesses about the negative. I guess the good side is when I am obsessing I shut right down and things like no water mean nothing, I don't get upset. It's not important as I am hurting so badly inside. With that said I
decided to make today about forgiveness because I have some forgiving to do. I don't know how to do it but I know I need to. There are two people out there living their lives having really disturbed mine whether meaning to or not. I need to work every day to a place of forgiveness. I have worked on why they did what they did. I have worked on how and why I reacted in a way that was dictated by my past and not their actions directly. But forgiveness will end the obsessiveness and perhaps I will forgive myself. And I will.
I hope you have a good night people and I hope more so that tomorrow gets better, then the next day, and the next, and the next....it's all I can really do and I hope for you as well.
All we can do is make good choices and hope for the best.
God the strength it takes on days like today to just get up and bother. One day when this is all more manageable, when the meds are right, the heads on straight, when the book is on the shelves I hope to say, "boy did I stumble across my strength".
I have a friend with a wonderful home, husband, cottage, ski chalet, two boys, two dogs, and a full active life. She's beautiful, unique, funny and charming and makes good money. She often brags about her children online and was told by someone that she shouldn't, that it's too much and she should be proud to just have children not their accomplishments. It's this mindset that is the have nots, want lots. You will do nothing but criticize others over what they have instead of getting off yer ass and admiring what you have and going for what you want. Just do it as they say. Start somewhere small and get on it. These few sentences are my future. What's yours?
Why can't I have THAT one!