DBPW - Day 24 Thank you ladies...thank you.

Wednesday February 26th, 2014 – Day 24

Sorry to say folks things are not looking up in our household.  I am still very down and yet I find myself also happy as shit no one is here to share in this amazing, awe inspiring, uplifting mood.  This IS what Bi Polar looks like. 

 

I wrote the above earlier, now, I am actually starting to feel a little more UP, a little more, "ME". *YAY*

 

 

Please do not worry about me.  I have seen WORSE days.  This is all part of being Bi Polar and I need to document this fact as part of this process.  I did say Diary of a Bi Polar Woman 365 days.  

 

 

 

"I will go to jail".

"I will go to jail".

"I must remember, I WILL go to jail".

 

 

 

I love the girls in my life who are so loving, accepting and understanding of all that I go through while living with this disease and attempting to give them the best of me too.  Finding that balance is what I long for in life and I will find it.  It's a fine line but I am getting better at knowing when to say yes or no, or yes and then I need to rest.  :)

 

 

 

 I look back on my 20s, can't believe I am still here *hiccup* *stumble* *heartbreak*.

I look back on my 30s, can't believe I am still here *chest pains* *head between legs* *scream face*

I look back on my 40s and think, "3 years and counting bitch you can do this!"

 

 

I love this and it makes me happy, as long as I am staring at it.  I lied on the floor and thought the same thought.  I did giggle.  All is not hopeless.

 

How are you fine folks doing?